Proverbs 8:34

Eehee, just made my Tumblr today! Idk if i'm going to blog as much here already but i'll still post for my shepherd sometimes. :)
I've got Backstreet Boy's I WANT IT THAT WAY stuck in my head since this morning! It's old, i know. And they cannot really sing. But still.. xD
Dang, just started watching You're Beautiful. Some parts I keep skipping lol. :) But so far, okay luh. Not the funniest but still can make me laugh sometimes.

http://shiningdudequette.tumblr.com/

I'm like, dude it's finally over. But i know i didn't give my best. And I'm just quite worried i won't get into that course? But it's my fault so yup i will still thank god in all circumstances. Because really, He has been the faithful one whilst i have not been so. Yesterday was dang. Quite wasted on some stuff. But i received a small recognition, put simply in a word that says it all. I'm so happy i got figured out as that. :) ultrafiltrator. Yeah manz.

And I'm like DUDE nowadays. Like the old times! :D hehheh. A few figures of special mention that triggered it once again: Kester, Ben and Dude, where's my car?

I'm bored! Haha. I want to watch videos but my brother's using the laptop now. I really don't know what to feel now. Because I've screwed yesterday's and today's papers. Contentment in God's presence.... :)

I've discovered 5 celebrities with the same birthday as me! AWESOME.

(in age order)
1. Declan Galbraith - 19 December 1991
2. Jake Gyllenhaal - 19 December 1980
3. Alyssa Milano - 19 December 1972
4. Tyson Beckford - 19 December 1970
5. Criss Angel - 19 December 1967

Except for the 5th one, i think the rest look fabulous. *thumbs up*

I think that holidays mean work for me. Not really the get a job kind of thing, but more like, time for me to get cracking on the things i never was really able to do, being tied down by Singapore's crap academic system. I think i shall do more of my "essays" here again once the holidays start. :) Maybe i should try to promote it if i want people to read something important! Haha.

I think i'm almost always on a different frequency as compared to others. I don't know if anyone would appreciate my kind of different, but i guess after a while it feels rather sick to keep trying to gain everyone's approval. I guess that is why my life's drive direction is mostly towards revolutionary. I think i might seem anti-social in some ways though. I admit that one of my flaws are interpersonal skills. I kind of am able to survive even if you left me at one corner. But well, i do try to relate to others sometimes. It's a bit hard though, especially around people of the opposite gender. Like, i'm scared they get the wrong message sometimes. Got to get out of my own world sometimes!

To lift, not to crumble.

I am so sinful. T.T I haven't felt like studying for the past few days... craps! And i keep eating and eating and eating. No wonder i'm back to my original weight. Shi bai! Chinese...don't know what to expect.

An Angel by DECLAN GALBRAITH is stuck in my head! He's so awesomely cute manz. On my birthday, i will think of him turning 18 at the same time as me hahaha. (:




OMG! I just found our that Jake Gyllenhaal has the same birthday as me too! All the cute people are born on 19 December, hehehehe.

Reflected on my speech yesterday. I think i know what is my problem sometimes. It's that i forget to encourage people through my conversations, especially in MSN. Oh man. Okay shall try to change. And yups i shall control my gaze everyday haha later people think wrongly when i fa dai. Shall read a little chinese after meeting today! :)

Slept only for 4 and half hours and i still woke up and couldn't sleep again. Must be because i didn't do the dishes last night! Later do some more housework yeahh.

THANK YOU GOD FOR TODAY! Though my English Lit is everything crap up one. Biology..so far minus 2 marks. But nevermind. DOOMS DAY IS OVERRRRR. Now i worry for the rest of the papers.

Man, it's been long since i've last exercised. Today felt much more relaxed and played some skipping and limbo. Felt some pain in some muscle in my right shoulder back and left knee! :O I am getting old. Fretted a little about going to Sports Day with my fringe pinned up and wearing specs (my exam look!) but then i told myself, it doesn't matter because why should someone judge you only by how you present yourself to be? I think it's okay to be yourself, your natural self sometimes. Don't have to be afraid to show the world that you are bald too. (ie supporting cancer patients by shaving your head.) But nice pimply forehead... T.T

I've been thinking, whenever i get too happy, it's a sign for me to practise discipline. Because i find that i lose too much control over my actions and feelings, and sometimes get too excited over NOTHING. Lol. Self-control! One of the fruits of the spirit. Oh man can't wait for O's to be over.

See it once every week is enough to make me happy. :)

I seriously don't want POP to be held on my birthday... D: It would be so insensitive of them! I think that day would be quite special too. Oh brother. I think if they really want it on that day, please put it in the morning. I'll leave in the afternoon. It's not that i don't want to go. It's that i believe i already have plans for that day. :)

I leave it all to You, Lord.

Ahh need to be here to release some thoughtsssssss! First thing i wanted to do. Craps i forgot Russia stuff. T.T 10 marks fly awayyyyy already, no hope of A1 for combined humanities! But i admit, i didn't really study THAT hard. Hmm oh well i'll just see how. I hope my handwriting was eligible enough...

Nvm next up is physics! If i can pass, yeah man.

Shall reimburse myself with rest till then...rest my brain hahaha. Ah God forgive me! :S Yesterday slept too much...

D'OH!

I felt amazing peace in me, despite having found out a huge mistake i made for chemistry paper and well, pretty much screwed my SS paper. Rushed to school like mad today! Haha. Thank God i reached about 20 minutes before the paper. :) I feel more motivated to study more for my papers. Tomorrow: History!!

I realize that everytime i focus too much on something, I become stale in almost everything i do regarding that. Take it cool, Gladys.

The picca's cute right? Haha. Food for thought! (: Studying for SS is draining....especially that globalization. T.T My chemistry......ahhh...

Anyway, been thinking. And... You know, sometimes we keep thinking of all the possibilities of things, fantasizing and stuff, and sometimes we let our imagination take us to somewhere we may not even need to be. Well, we've got to pull ourselves out of that mad circle of thoughts sometimes. Sometimes, we don't have to think so much... We just continue to give our best with what we know. Anything we need to clarify, just do so. Because sometimes we end up confusing ourselves even more. And we certainly don't want our thoughts to draw us away from concentrating on the tasks we have in hand right? :)

this love has taken its toll on me. (oooohh)

ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS

i think what the person said was right. when it hits, He will hit you hard....with His own speciality of wake-up calls. Done out of love. Have you not seen, heard and tasted? Search thoroughly. Because God is pleased with obedience above all things that you wanna do for Him.

I think i really want to become a lyrical dancer next time/ some day... :) So controlled, so beautiful... <3

Taekwondo first!

J around my neck for Saturday.

CRAPS AMATHS TOMORROW!!

Maths paper 1 seemed easy. Except for 2 or 3 questions. I'm still scared for Maths paper 2. Eating baked fries and reading manga now. Then go do work bah. Jus needed to realease some thoughts here. :)

Craps i'm feeling so stressed right now!! My sister told my cousin that i'm working very hard for my O's when i'm actually not. T.T I guess it's good for him because he works well under pressure. ARGH i'm going to do so much worse than him. >,< 

Writing yesterday's composition got me more motivated to get the 8 or 9 points to get into psychology and social services course in NP. Crapssssssss, i need a plan!!! >,< Emaths later....i'm so worried i'll make such careless mistakes as usual. Aiish!

Banned from Facebook (by sharon) and MSN (by myself, well FB comes along with it right?)

But i kind of love not functioning properly. I love the pressure and the drive. But i'm just sitting down here and only ENJOYING the feeling. I must tell myself i am not!

Mathssss!! >,<

i've decided: Everyday heavy breakfast, then small simple but frequent meals for the rest of the day. Yes! >=)

I dreamt that i embarrassed myself during some ministry meeting. By tripping and falling haha. Like it was intended for me to fall there. I have to evaluate and re-evaluate! Messed up brain, stop messing yourself up constantly. Craps i'm not supposed to use the computer and i've used it for 2 and half hours already. T.T Been reading manga online lol.

I realize there's no need to purposely impress someone or others. Especially the one you love. Just be yourself and be more like Christ.
Just read some old blog entries. Friend-locked some, privatized some. And what am i still doing here online? It's almost 2am. I can't sleep. Though i know i have to wake up at 6am later. I feel SO SIAN. =.= Maths...Maths!!! Argh. I wished someone could have slapped me to wake up and focus on studies much earlier. I feel like DYING already. >:-{
Hilarious.
I shall lose those few pounds after O's.As for now, i can only afford walking and housework. ):

is anybody listening? can you hear me when i call? shooting signals in the air, 'cause i need somebody's help.

Saturday is SLACK DAY. Totally. D: I think i need to see Seet. Soon. ): Si bei sian...

I think i know why this is happening though.... :( okay that'll be the first thing i'll do tomorrow morning. Yeah, set.

THANK GOD FOR THAT PHONE CALL YESTERDAY, <3. Really appreciated your honesty.

Yay eddie's coming this friday to play soccer! But not prayer meeting.

My wager with God for you.
A-maths A-maths! E-maths E-maths!
Give me a pure heart, O God. :(

I feel so sad, thinking about her. I really want to cry... and pray so hard.
Nothing's pushing me now. Dang. I need to slap myself to wake up and stop stoning. CRAP.
I have high EQ apparently i think, but sometimes i am just too lazy to care.
A mind of an explorer.... (: (not that silly Dora the explorer)

I feel so demoralized. My prelims results are really like poo. I don't feel like doing anything manzzzz. But i slept for 10 and half hours yesterday so i have to do work today! I was like a pig yesterday. Use computer, sleep, wake up and eat dinner, sleep, wake up and use toilet, sleep, wake up and go school. Ah and i feel so tired today too! But i still want to thank God for my English. I'm still really concerned about it, but i pray so hard that my discussion essay can score during the actual O's too. I'm praying and hoping so hard. :( And I also pray that my Higher Chinese will get at least C6. I'm probably going to Poly but hey, i don't want to flunk my Mother Tongue. I used to hate it, but i realize that it's only because we can't get the hang of the language, that's why we think we "hate" the subject. And i think i also hate my teacher so yup. But that's not an excuse, i know. Must buck up to shove it into his face! (:

Just confirmed the 10 orders for FBTs. Ain't able to get a further discount but that's okay. $9.50, people! Haha. Making payment tomorrow after school, need to rush to AMK Hub straight after. So i don't think i'm meeting Yeo. Sorry about that. Collecting from her on Saturday right after service. (: I need to bring a bigger bag on that day lol.

I was considering telling that i didn't bring my guitar tomorrow because i didn't want to play tomorrow. And i guess God didn't want me to in a sense, lie, and I'm quite glad that Chantel sms-ed us saying that guitar lessons will resume only on 16th October. Yay! Because i was thinking that i started learning too early. Lian2 O Levels mei2 zhun3 bei4 hao3, hai2 yao4 xue2 xin1 de4 dong1 xi3. *shakes head* Tsk tsk. I will see how...

Just received my ring from Han Wen today. Pure silver sia... and so expensive that my heart aches. ): But of course we know that the ring is an ALLOY. If it were pure silver, it would be quite soft and lose its shape easily. Because pure metals are malleable, as the atoms are able to slide over each other, due to its orderly arrangement. CHEMISTRY! F9 again. Nevermind! Shall try again.

I need to lose weight! Hahaha. But i'm so not serious about it. He's so slim, lol. And i don't wanna show flabby arms when wearing sleeveless. :)

I know he's hurting somehow. And i wish i could hug him and tell him everything's gonna be alright. Wipe away his tears and strengthen him.


Today my dear seety just told me that we won't get married in heaven. I don't know whether to be glad or sad. I'll just stick with an in-between. I don't know if i would even get married at all! Haha. But in heaven, everyone will be angels and good friends(:
 
Shall try to complete at least an Emaths paper today. R2R! (road to recovery)